A letter to my daughter

Hello London,

You are currently 2 months old and I have to say I love you to pieces. You are the joy of my life. I never thought my heart could swell so big, I never knew I could love so big, and you, yes you young lady are the cause of it. I think back on your journey into my life, and I believe you were brought here to give me a purpose. Some of that purpose is to pour into you, all of the good qualities I hold and, all of the ones I want you to have. You will be a wonder. You will be amazing. You are truly a blessing that inspires me to do better. You are motivation. I cannot wait to show you what success is, and that the climb to it is the hardest, but most important part. I think that everyone’s life you come into, you bring happiness . I only expected you to bring joy into my life and now I see that the happiness you give me expands into others lives.  When I prayed for joy and happiness in my life, it came in the most unexpected way, you. When you 1st arrived, I was unsure of what to do. Those big pretty eyes opened, and showed me that love still exists, it is still a reality. Now I know why children enrich a persons life, I now have 1st hand experience. Daughter, I want you to know God, I want you to know faith, I want to you to know that prayer works. Your existence is the proof. I love you London P. Tucker with all of my heart. Muah.

Getting back in the groove of it all

Hey guys!

I am finally officially off of maternity leave. I took 8 weeks off to spend time with my precious little girl and I enjoyed every minute. Now that I am back at work as of Monday, I am officially a working mother. It is bittersweet. I love to work, productive days are what I live for, but I love being a mother, being there for every waking moment for my child. I can see why tons of women do not come back to work. I probably would not be one of those women. I have a few things career wise that I HAVE to accomplish. If I set out a goal, I hold myself accountable to finish it. I am not faulting stay at home moms or those who decide they need more time with a new baby, but I know that I would always have that “what if?” in my head. So back to the grind it is.

Challenges I am having at the moment is finding time to work out, and just get some things done. Having a little one and being a single mother has proven to be a challenge, but I am learning that I am no wonder woman and as long as I have a plan and try to accomplish two things in a day vs 10-15, that I will be okay. Eventually I will be able to accomplish more, but baby steps are required at the moment.

In baby news my little one will be 2 months officially on Friday. Time is flying. She can hold her neck up pretty well, and has some good  movement, is following objects very well, and she is very alert. She startles easily. She has just begun to coo and smile when you smile at her and it is so joyous to experience. I love it. Motherhood is bliss.

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That’s all for my update! I look forward to blogging about my Mommy/Challenges/Workouts/Life adventures on a more consistent basis.

Post Baby Body

I know that most women do not post their post baby bodies, but I will. Yes, I have stretchmarks and yes, my linea nigra still present (dark line down your belly you can get while pregnant), but I want to tell you, working out pre baby, and eating well, and breast feeding post baby really works. I could have really had an awesome post baby body, had I worked out during my pregnancy, but I did not. I am happy to say I lost all but 4lbs of my baby weight and my post baby body is leaner, my waist has shrunk tremendously.

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Having a baby can be complicated,  especially when you are induced, and your epidural gives out during labor. Fun times. I commend any woman who had a natural delivery. It is NOT for the weary.  But the joy you recieve from bringing life in this world is something I just cannot put into words. My transition from a singular person to a woman with a child was seamless. I was “built for this” in the words of my child’s father. Here is my little bundle of joy, London Paige. WARNING! She is absolutely adorable! image image She is one month old as of recent and we are both learning the ins and outs of eachother and breast feeding.  It’s awesome to give your child nourishment and watch them grow. It’s something a bond that only me and my little one share. All smiles.

Almost Full Term

Hey there!

 

How is everybody? Me I am over here just counting down the little days I have left before I have a little one to care for. Honestly, I am terrified/excited/asking Jesus if I can do this. 10 little fingers and toes will be my responsibility. That’s a lot. I have had a few hiccups in my plan as far as having assistance from a few family members, and I will say, it was a very eye opening experience. People who I would not have even imagined to even be interested in my life, have offered me assistance in my transition from a singular individual to a mommy. I am forever grateful, and words, tears, and emotions cannot even describe how thankful I am for those people. :-) They get all of my smiley faces.

I had my 36 week Doctor appointment yesterday, and my cervix is closed and the baby is high up. Looks like she will take her time coming into this world, and I do not plan on rushing her (Unless medically necessary or at/past my due date). If I can avoid a c-section, I will. My doctor wanted me to induce and I was like no ma’am. She looked at me funny like are you sure, I was like I am positive. The more my little one can cook the better she will be health wise. No need to rush what my body is naturally programmed to do. I know there are some Moms out there who are pro induction, but this little lady, is not. I do not care how many stretch marks my belly button is getting. (Let’s pour a little bio oil out for my new stripes), haha.

In other adventures, I have been taking “usies” LOL  and trying to refrain from profane language to those inconsiderate people who park their cars extra close to your door. Try fitting a belly, 6ft of long legs and this booty all in my car from the passenger side. I am also amazed at the little movements my belly does. My baby likes to contort my stomach. I’ve had what looked like Camel humps,  little elbows, and cleavage LOL! Other than that My dog, Gizmo has no idea that his attention is about to be divided. I am sort of worried about how he will adjust, but I am sure my smart little Yorkie will get the hang of it once he gets over being jealous. I’ve secretly been tempted to put a onsie on him, but I have not. He is a boy and I do not need to exploit my poor doggie like that.

 

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34 weeks Plus!

38 more days until I have a daughter!

Wow has time flown by. She has been the center of my universe and I am sure she will continue to be when she gets here. I almost have everything I need for her there are just a few things that I need to purchase and voila! Baby London will have everything she needs. I am also trying to prepare pre prepped meals so I will not have to worry about feeding myself. In the past month, I have had a Baby shower (Pics will be posted later), and a Maternity photoshoot! Here are some proofs

 

 

 

I also have had a few scares, as you progress into your 3rd trimester you spring leaks. I thought that I was leaking amniotic fluid at least 2 times. But I am fine at the nervous she’s almost here stage. My life has been no cake walk when it comes to stress and other personal life events, but I am handling it all as best as I can. I have learned you just have to learn what is really important and you cannot focus on what you cannot control. Just do your best and that will have to be good enough. My baby will also have several playmates, my cousin, brother, and a few friends are expecting babies!! This is an exciting time! I cannot wait to post about my baby’s arrival. Until then!

7 Months and updates

Hello world!

 

I have been here in the background following my blogger friends and what not but I have not been posting. I have good news, I am 28 weeks and 5 days pregnant (seven months) and I have 11 weeks more to go! I am in my 3rd trimester and  I cannot wait to meet my little one!

I passed my classes for Grad school and let me tell you my level of concentration was not all there. Like at all. I made it with B’s. I have been really putting my all into my baby shower and planning it has been no easy feat.( I have a checklist!)  I am also spending more time with family and friends and working on my long term relationships. I went this weekend with my oldest niece in tow to Schlitterbaun. Schlitterbaun is a waterpark close to San Antoinio that is arguably one of the biggest waterparks in the world.  Fun times my whole family came out for the event and we had a blast. My niece loved it they had so many areas for kids to play in and she took FULL advantage.  She got sick however and nursing a 5 year old while pregnant and exhausted is not easy. The next day I fell asleep everywhere!

This weekend I get to spend time with my youngest niece and she is a cutie! I am excited to get all of this family time because it really is showing my little family does bond. I love it!

 

23 Weeks…Time Flies

Time is flying,

 

As far as this pregnancy goes. I am almost in my 6th month (and according to some calendars I am in my 6th month).  One week away from it. So cool. According to everyone I am small, and my doctor thinks I need to slow down on my eating. I looked at myself and I see nothing but belly and boobs. I know myself, and I know my regular weight minus working out. It’s a little bigger, so I think she may be wrong but I am listening to her…sort of. I am not of an average size and I also don’t fit the standards when I gain muscle mass. But I have been active, walking, dancing, playing with my dog, ect. I’m not sitting around gaining weight. My butt would fall asleep!

As for school, I missed one whole entire discussion module(which is bad) but I passed all of my tests. Hopefully I do well in this last module. I would like to finish with a strong B in class and take a summer class. I want to finish by at least 2015. Pray for me!  Other than that I have been nesting and obsessing about my nursery and up and coming shower. Fun times. Here are some pics for your viewing pleasure.

 

Awesome Weekend Recap

What a weekend!

It was action packed. I;

  • Won a TV at work! O EM GEEEE!
  • Had my cousin come in from Chile (she is a flight attendant)
  • Organized the rest of my apartment
  • Got all angry pregnant lady on Pizza Hut for their poor customer service
  • Played with my dog
  • Got Pedi’s with my cousin
  • Ate at Joe’s
  • Went Grocery Shopping
  • Had my new mattress delivered ( I now sleep on clouds)
  • Went to the pool for a swim
  • Cooked dinner for my sister and cousin

It was pretty eventful! But fun. I moved to a new area of town recently and have yet to learn all the ins and outs of the area. Still I love the new pedi place, they serve alcoholic beverages. So trust me as soon as my daughter makes her appearance (Maybe a month or two after) I will have myself a tasty alcoholic beverage!

On Sunday the day was beautiful so my sister, cousin, Gizmo(my dog), and I went to the pool. Check out my mini photo shoot

 

So since I have had a growth spurt per say, my bikini tops no longer fit or should I say cover the bases. So Sports bra it is!  I even have a tough time with those, but hey! I will go swimsuit shopping soon (I will wear a bikini preggo and all). I cooked my famous stuffed shells for my sis and cousin, and they enjoyed it!  I am glad! I love cooking for people. Makes me feel domesticated! Ha!

This Monday I am getting back into the swing of things. I go from a later shift to an earlier shift and I now work the weekends this April. I did some finagling, and switched with a few co workers to volunteer for the MS150. I wish I could participate in the bike ride, but, hey, preggo power will support on the sidelines.  I also have to take 4 tests for school (thanks to my concentration issues/procastination) tonight by midnight. I have yet to take one test. Pray for me people!

In other pregnant news. I have never been so insecure about words/silly conversations in my life. Hormones are……irrational and at times so am I. My cousin decides to nickname me fatty and I know she means well, I know I am nowhere near fat, but my irrational mind really believes her, I had to stop her from saying it. I also got into a spat with a friend over the word MILF. As silly as that is, I wanted validation and I came to the conclusion that he does not think I am a MILF due to my pregnant status. It pissed me off, made me cry a little and then he got in his feelings and went for a verbal attack. I had to tell him I would talk to him later we both cannot be irrational and emotional. One of us has to be clear in life. I guess being pregnant and having friends who have never dealt with a pregnant woman do not understand things she will ask will be off the wall and matter no matter how silly Oh wells. One day when he has a wife, he will be like OHHHHH Light bulb!

Well I will keep you guys posted on my pregnant adventures! Bye!

20 weeks and a TMI Tag

I am officially 20 weeks pregnant!

This is basically the halfway point and I feel my baby move! At this particular week women go for what is called an anatomy scan to get the baby’s measurements and to see if they are growing adequately. My baby is on track and her legs and feet are long. Well, that is expected, being that I am a 6 footer and her Dad is just as tall as me. Every day her kicks are getting stronger and it is making me fall more and more in love with my baby. I have also become obsessed with my baby shower planning and making sure my registries are complete. Pinterest has become the place for all ideas that I am thinking of.  I also found a sale on a 4 in one crib for a decent price at Target So Awesome!

Enough baby talk! Let’s get to the TMI Tag, taken from The Dancing Runner’s blog :-)

 What are you wearing?
Grey slacks, an old hoochie shirt dress I am using as a shirt, and my grey blazer
2: Ever been in love?
I have, it was a while ago.
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
absolutely
4: How tall are you?
6feet !
5: How much do you weigh?
With the baby? I am 190+
6: Any tattoos?
Three two on my pelvic bone(ouch an Orchid and butterfly) and a huge butterfly on my side.
7: Any piercings?
My ears and belly button
8: OTP?
Frozen Yogurt
9: Favorite show?
Bravo TV, Blacklist, Scandal!
10: Favorite bands?
Janelle Monae’s Orchestra
11: Something you miss?
My wonderful abs and the ability to overeat without barfing :-)
12: Favorite song?
Right now, Love on Top – Beyonce (Well because my baby is my little love on top!)
13: How old are you?
28 almost 29
14: Zodiac sign?
Taurus
15: Quality you look for in a partner?
Family oriented, charming, sense of humor, stable, and adventerous
16: Favorite Quote?
Character is who you are when no one is looking -MLK
17: Favorite actor?
I dont have one but I enjoy those who play very believable characters like those in Homeland
18: Favorite color?
Purple(any variation)
19: Loud music or soft?
Loud!
20: Where do you go when you’re sad?
To the couch to watch tv
21: How long does it take you to shower?
10 minutes.
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
20 minutes max
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
Yes, a few. Back in the day, only to protect myself.
24: Turn on?
A person who takes good care of themselves
25: Turn off?
Cockiness
26: The reason I started blogging?
Just to chronicle my journey through my late 20’s and see if I could really give fitness my all.
27: Fears?
Killing bugs and having to sweep them up. Grosssss or a bug crawling on me.
28: Last thing that made you cry?
When Cyrus’ husband died on Scandal
29: Last time you said you loved someone?
Today when I left my dog to go to work
30: Meaning behind your blog Name?
Shoedooo is a nickname that my sister gave me years ago and it stuck!
31: Last book you read?
My Business and Society book for class
32: The book you’re currently reading?
Nothing but for school
33: Last show you watched?
Some show on Bravo
34: Last person you talked to?
Co-workers
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
The father of my child.
36: Favorite food?
Mexican, Mac and Cheese, Cheese, Yogurt, ect
37: Place you want to visit?
Madrid
38: Last place you were?
Work
39: Do you have a crush?
Nobody as of yet
40: Last time you kissed someone?
Had to be November if you don’t count me kissing my dog
41: Last time you were insulted?
Eh…. Thursday or Friday.
42: Favorite flavor of sweet?
Dark Chocolate
43: What instruments do you play?
I can play piano by ear sometimes
44: Favorite piece of jewelery?
My watches
45: Last sport you played?
Flag Football???? I cant remember
46: Last song you sang?
Supposed to be Mine by – Vivian Green
47: Favorite chat up line?
What is a chat up line?
48: Have you ever used it?
I dont know….
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
My sister, My cousin and a friend on Sunday
50: Who should answer these questions next?
All my Readers!

Busy Worker Bee

 

Has it been busy?

YES! I am excited to have energy to do a lot lately. I just literally finished moving into my new place, and I am in decorate mode. Anyone who knows me, knows I do not usually decorate anything, but My house is about to have an addition and I have officially begun to nest. I am also starting to work out the details of my baby shower and I am excited, and busy! School is also slightly demanding and I take naps in between writing papers and reading chapters. So between Registries, working out the logistics of the baby shower, studying, being a pet parent, trying to hang out with family and friends, I am BOOKED. Naps are essential at this point.

Up and coming this week is my 20 week ultrasound. I cannot believe I have been pregnant for almost 5 months. This is cray. I am beginning to feel normal and even forget I am pregnant sometimes and forget I cannot lift or bend over to get things with out my belly getting in the way. I’ve already taken a tumble or two. LOL I am naturally clumsy, so forgetting about the extra weight in the front of my body happens a lot. Just yesterday, I miscalculated sitting on the exercise ball and fell flat on my butt (Luckily there is a lot of cushion back there ;-) ) This confession is not to alarm you, but to let people know I am not made of glass or as fragile as my condition seems.  I can still do active things, take a small tumble on my butt and be okay. If my mother is reading this she is terrified for her grandchild. LOL tell her not to worry.

This weekend, me and my mom went to a family friends baby shower, we had a blast! It was fun and I enjoyed seeing one of my Childhood friends being celebrated. I think I am beginning to get a tad bit sentimental. I will be running a 5k at the beginning of the month and volunteering at the MS150. Excited!!!!! So I am trying to do this all at the same time. I like to stay busy. Life is cooler that way. Until next time! IMG_3095[1]